“So, what are some of your hobbies?”
Having been in school for the past 16 years, I always have hated that question. It’s so generic, and frustrating. In a group setting, people always share the same answers, and I feel pressure to come up with some sort of extracurricular activity that regularly captivates my interest. In reality, though, my sole focus in life has always been school. If I had a moment to breathe in between assignments, I wasn’t going to spend my time working on a “hobby”. Like any other normal person, I would spend my precious free time mostly with friends, or consuming a mind-numbing TV show.
That brings us to the present. All of a sudden, I am in my early twenties, and the activity that took up the vast majority of my waking hours has vanished. I am now left with all the time in the world to figure out my own interests and what extracurricular activities I most enjoy.
It doesn’t stop there, though. Hobbies are just one piece of a much larger, increasingly complex puzzle. I am searching for a clearer understanding of who, exactly, I am as an individual. I know who my parents want me to be. I know how my friends, across varying groups, interchangeably see me. I know how my peers perceive me from what I post on social media. My personality feels like a multi-faceted Venn-diagram: all of the different categories have nuggets of accuracy that contribute to who I am as a whole, but the overlapping center where all of the circles connect is a mystery.
SO. For the first time in my life, I am completely free of many major responsibilities. I am unattached to anyone or any place. My major goal, as of now, is to fall in love with myself (cringe!), or at least become a more well-rounded individual. I want to think critically, learn from many, make foolish decisions and have pivotal moments.
This blog is going to my outlet for all of that. It will contain inner rumblings, rants, and reactions. It will be weird and probably too personal. It probably will leave you scratching your head, wondering why I took the time to write such silliness; or worse, why you took the time to read it. Either way, we’re here now. Let’s just see where this takes us. Hey, just maybe, if we’re lucky, something meaningful will come out of it.